She's happy if you see her but if you read her diary you'll know that she's hurt, she's always crying. She has a lot of friends but no one knows her secret. No one knows that she's crying inside. You didn't know that she's suffering. She doesn't know what to do. She already plan to take suicide but sometimes she realize that god give her life because god has a porpoise. She think that this is just a part of life. She thinks that god knows that she will succeed this problem.