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The Hole Within

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dark drugabuse heroin lgbt memoir psycholocial sexualabuse sexualexploration sexualorientation truestory wattys2017

My soul-searching story of a dark past. Growing up in a strict Mormon household I slowly withdraw into a dark world of my own; self-mutilating, suicide attempts and self-medicating with drugs and alcohol. I go into therapy and discover repressed memories of being severely abused by my father. My world degrades into mental illness, becoming involved with a cult, confused sexual orientation and further drug and alcohol use, culminating in a year's exploration with heroin, cocaine and meaningless sex. My self-destruction is assured but when I become ill with a life-threatening illness I must fight to live and discover my salvation.

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Beyond The Exterior by Suck_My_Words

Before I could walk away completely, he grabbed my arm and pushed me against the wall. My wrists were caught in his grasp as he placed them above my head. I tried my best to avoid eye contact with him, knowing that if I didn't, I'd fall under his spell. My face held a blank stare not trying to give him the satisfaction that he actually had an affect on me. His cool breath spread across my face while his eyes roamed over my body. "Why the fuck do you make it so hard for someone to like you?"I kept my mouth closed irritated that he was actually talking this way to me."How hard is it to show some consideration for others?" "That's rich coming from a nigga who when he first met me, didn't even shake my hand. You're an arrogant, egotistical, asshole, who thinks the only place for a woman is on your penis." "At least I'm not a self centered, power hungry, bitch." "Fuck you."Before I realized what happened, his lips were on mine. The sweet taste of mint gum was being absorbed by my taste buds. Coming down from my high, I pushed him away. Both of us touched our bottom lips looking at each other in confusion.

✉︎ 𝑷𝒓𝒂𝒚𝒆𝒓 𝑩𝒐𝒐𝒌 ✉︎ by stronggirlsclub

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18 Years of God Damn Bullshit: A Memoir by xxxtheghostofyouxxx

Poems and stories from my chaotic life because I love to trauma dump with sexy words. Be kind, and enjoy <3

In the Basement, In the Sky by In-Decent-Pause

Jen is trying his best, okay? His best is just... never good enough. His boyfriend thinks he's cheating, his ex-girlfriend wants him back more than anything, and they're all terrible at laying down boundaries, so all that results in is a world of heartache and hurt for everyone. He suffers from depression and ADHD that he medicates with street drugs, which only makes everything worse, and with every step up the ladder he has to climb to get to the top, he slides back ten more rungs. But at least once you hit rock bottom you don't have anywhere to go but up. Warnings: Mental illness (depression and adhd), drug use/addiction/abuse/overdose, suicide attempt, hospital (ER), narcotics anonymous A Sheraton Academy AU.

Beyond Her Exterior by discriminative

She lived her life as if it was normal and everything was okay. But in reality, that was never the case, She was struggling. Her life wasn't as easy as she tried to make it seem. She went to school, pretending to be happy all the time so her friends didn't become suspicious. And then she went home, to watch her 'father' throw his life away as he shot up in his arm. She hated seeing him locking himself in the bathroom only to come out ten minutes later, high out of his mind. He scared her; He did weird things when he was like that. From walking into her room and just staring around and then leaving without saying a word, to yelling at her and throwing whatever was in arms reach at her. She was suffering, but she still tried to make herself look like she was okay. Nobody suspected anything odd going on in her life. Afterall, she was Alexis Deaken, Everyone believed her life was perfect. They evyed her, they believed she had everything. Little did they know that the second she left that school building everyday she was going home to something unimaginable.

Anatomy by emihlesalman

In a world where darkness lurks behind every smile, a young woman who embarks on a harrowing journey of self-discovery through the fragmented memories of her past. As she grapples with the trauma of a brutal assault, the grief of losing her best friend, and her struggle with her sexual identity, she turns to writing as a means of survival. Each chapter unravels the layers of her psyche, dissecting the pain, resilience, and complexity of her experiences. As she delves deeper into her narrative, she confronts the haunting shadows that threaten to consume her, striving to reclaim her voice in a world that has silenced her. But as she writes, the weight of her mental health looms larger, leading to a devastating cliffhanger where the ink runs dry, leaving her story unfinished and the reader grappling with the echoes of her pain.

The Body Swap by storylover5555

Ever wondered what it's like to be a boy? You're about to find out. Love isn't meant to be easy, everybody knows that, but is it meant to be this hard? After a mistake at a party, two highschool students end up in each other's bodies. The problem? It's hard to fall in love, when the person you love is in your own body. Read on to see how the two unfortunate students learn to adapt to each other's lives, including periods, peeing and a whole lot of awkward genital issues. WARNING. STRONG LANGUAGE IN FIRST CHAPTER. Rated R for strong language, not sexual stuff. I mean there's a part about her poking a penis but that's only because she doesn't understand why she has one. Wouldn't you poke your own penis if you woke up as a boy one day? Copyright 2013 All rights reserved.

Evolution by andshesmiles

There are a lot of things you don't really think about until they happen to you. Take rape, for instance. I always thought, "That won't happen to me. I have a boyfriend. I trust him. He would never take advantage of me like that..." I couldn't have been more wrong. Love in this day and age is often confused for manipulation and abuse. The warning signs are here. The things we say will tell us everything that is wrong. You are worth more than what you think you are. It's not your fault. If they tell you otherwise, get out. Burn the bridge. Always remember someone is waiting for you to walk into their life. Someone needs you. Someone loves you. Getting away from all of the wrong people and finding the right ones could save you. I can promise you right now that it saved me. These are the journal entries and selected poems from my first experience of love that left a unpleasant taste in my mouth- quite literally. I am putting this out for the whole world to see because I hope everyone will learn from my experience. People can see. We have no excuses to continue living our lives in ignorance. ...WARNING... HARMFUL THEMES INCLUDING MENTION OF SUICIDE, SELF HARM, AND RAPE. THIS HAS EXPLICIT CONTENT. RECOVERY AND AWARENESS IS THE PURPOSE OF SHARING. DO NOT READ IF THESE THEMES ARE OFFENSIVE OR HARMFUL TO YOU.

Life of Ives ✔️ by Amplect

COMPLETE ⚠️ This is a fictional story. ⚠️ All characters are fictional, their opinions and actions are in no way real, or related to the real world. ⚠️ This story contains mature themes. ⚠️ Mature themes such as violence, harassment, self-harm, suicide-attempts, sex, alcohol- and drug-abuse. ⚠️ Read with caution! ⚠️ I will not post warnings on the chapters containing mature themes. This is your only warning. 🔪 "You're so damn gorgeous, Ives," he says, and leans up to meet my lips again. He's the one that's gorgeous, and I feel myself completely loose myself once again. His lips are dominating my own, as his hands travel down my back, and he tugs on my shirt, to release it from my skirt. His hands then caresses my bare skin for a few minutes, before he sits up. He brings me with him, and I'm now straddling his lap. His eyes are filled with lust, and I'm so damn scared, for completely different reasons than earlier tonight. His skillful fingers finds the buttons of my shirt, and he opens them slowly, while I lean back down towards him, to make our lips connect again. I might come to my senses if he doesn't keep kissing me. He tugs the shirt off of me, and his hands run across my bare stomach. He stops, suddenly, and I feel a sharp sting under my left boob. "What happened? Are you..." He trails off, as he looks down at my body, and I stiffen. Holy shit, I forgot all about that. "Ives... What is this?" he asks, and he pulls his hands away from me. 🌹 Ives has just moved away from her overprotective brother and their alcoholic dad to go to college. She is trying her best to put her past behind her, but it keeps coming back to haunt her. In this book we get to know Ives and her new friends as she struggles with her newfound freedom. (This is the first book in the Life series.)

Overdose (BXB) Completed/Editing by beautifulsins946

Battling a drug and alcohol addiction, Alex meets someone who will forever change his life. Follow him through his painful yet enlightening journey to wellness. This story means a lot to me because I too am on a journey to wellness and I felt that the only way I could share parts of what I've been through is with a story. If you ever feel low, just remember that rock bottom is the perfect foundation to build your new life. I love you and you are enough.

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Beyond The Exterior cover

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18 Years of God Damn Bullshit: A Memoir cover

In the Basement, In the Sky cover

Beyond Her Exterior cover

The Body Swap cover

Evolution cover

Life of Ives ✔️ cover

Overdose (BXB) Completed/Editing cover

Beyond The Exterior

Before I could walk away completely, he grabbed my arm and pushed me against the wall. My wrists were caught in his grasp as he placed them above my head. I tried my best to avoid eye contact with him, knowing that if I didn't, I'd fall under his spell. My face held a blank stare not trying to give him the satisfaction that he actually had an affect on me. His cool breath spread across my face while his eyes roamed over my body. "Why the fuck do you make it so hard for someone to like you?"I kept my mouth closed irritated that he was actually talking this way to me."How hard is it to show some consideration for others?" "That's rich coming from a nigga who when he first met me, didn't even shake my hand. You're an arrogant, egotistical, asshole, who thinks the only place for a woman is on your penis." "At least I'm not a self centered, power hungry, bitch." "Fuck you."Before I realized what happened, his lips were on mine. The sweet taste of mint gum was being absorbed by my taste buds. Coming down from my high, I pushed him away. Both of us touched our bottom lips looking at each other in confusion.