“Every year you pass the day you were born, and every year you pass the day of your death. I await that day, the day of my death. It could be tomorrow, hell it could be right this fucking second. Why does life have to be so complicated?” I thought to myself, while holding my dads gun in my hand.
“Good Bye world. See ‘a later.”
Naomi Dawson is a depressed and mad teenage girl. She despises the world, and people. Her hopes of dying never leave her mind. To her, death is the only answer. Her dads multiple attempts of abusing never come to an end, and his apologies never process in her head. Never did she think, that someone would actually care about her besides her dead mom, Blake Lancaster does, and is the only one that’s always there. Her shoulder to cry on, her hand to hold on, and his presence is the most valuable thing to her. Naomi is very stubborn though; she tries her best to convince herself that she doesn’t have a ‘crush’ on Blake. Because, all crushes do is—crush. Blake on the other hand, is open minded, and wants Naomi to like him (even though she doesn’t know that) he likes pressing her buttons, and making every moment memorable with Naomi. After all, she is his everything, and he is her everything.
Will Naomi ever fall for Blake? Will Blake ever confess his feelings to Naomi?
Is Naomi really Living the Lie?
WARNING: IF YOU HAVE ANY PROBLEMS (ABUSE,BULLYING,SELF HARM) I SUGGEST YOU NOT READ THIS BOOK, I DO NOT WANT TO TRIGGER ON ANY FEELINGS/NEEDS THAT YOU MAY HAVE. DON’T SAY I DIDN’T WARN YOU. THIS STORY MIGHT GET YOU ADDICTED TO PIZZA+SKITTLES. IT’S GOOD, YOU SHOULD TRY THEM TOGETHER, IF NOT, YOUR MISSING OUT BUDDY.
-Lord V
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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