Find Me A Reason
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  • Reads 325
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  • Parts 13
  • Time 1h 41m
Ongoing, First published Jun 23, 2017
Tragedy always strikes when we least expect it. And most often, it will leave our life in tatters. 
  
  And it is no different for 20 year old Millar Van Der Meer, who is left questioning the purpose to living. Abandoned without cause, stripped of everything she ever was, Millar has no will left to live and has only one wish. And that one wish is to die. 
  
  But there is something in her way, and that is the law. And the integrity of her doctors. Nevertheless, she doesn't give up. She takes every chance she can get, even when her friends try and persuade her that life will always give you challenged, and it will always get better. But that doesn't even make a mark on her death wish. 
  
  Cue, Barrett Hartmann. Her friend that lives a good 8 hours away from her. Having been friends since somewhere in high school years, Barrett thinks he knows Millar pretty damn well. That is, until he meets the version of her that is so damaged that she can't see any light in the tunnel she is paralysed in. 
  
  He sticks by her though, through the insults, the violence and anger, the heartbreak and the depression, he holds her hand. She is transferred to his town so he can continue to look after her, but still keep his job and house. 
  
  And yet, after all Barrett's efforts to find Millar a reason, she is still struggling to accept her life as it now is. She still finds herself falling down that slippery slope, and as much as she doesn't want to accept, she truly doesn't know if she will be able to keep her treacherous hold on this life. 
  
  Can Barrett convince her to keep trying? Can he cope with being her interim reason for living? Is there hope for this to end as a love story or will it end as it starts, as a tragedy?
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