Diary of a Cofused Gay
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Dear Diary,
Sometimes being who you really are , is hard than predending to be someonelse. Although its safer that way.
I was contented being who I am in order not to hurt anyone --- ( or my families pride )--- , i was even planning not to get married in the future insted i will only focus on my job ( no matter how lonely may it be ) and if i got lucky I would also take good care of my big brother's future children .
But just when i was prepared to be lonely for the rest of my life .-( NO LOVE LIFE )-- fate introduce me to someone special.
She made my world upside down,
made me smile unexplainable ,
made my tummy feels there's a
butterfly in it.
And made my heart skip a beat .
But how could it be ?
How could I fall inlove on a girl called Allison Dillias ? Most importantly , how could I fall inlove on a girl ? When eversince i could remember , I was a gay .
I am confuse !! -_-"
- Serge Madrigal
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