The Online Diaries...
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Complete Fri, Apr 11, 201432m
... of a girl in denial.
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"My story. The story of me.
This is my life right now. And instead of daydreaming and running away from reality, I'm going to write about my reality.
It's not interesting at all. It's more just for myself, like therapy."
This was my life. I was depressed, burnt out and definatly lost, but I found myself. If you want to take a look inside my head or someone with problems similar to mine, you might like this. It gets a little intense sometimes, but depressions aren't exactly about broken nails. Everything that is in this story is real. All the emotions, descriptions, people, experiences, everyting was really my life.
I know not many people will read this, but just in case someone does; I hope you enjoy it and if you have any questions or just want to talk, feel free to message me, you'll be the second person to ever send me a message on here, so you will definatly be answered :)
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