it was never sunny.

friday
june 26, 2020

back then, in the early 2000's, it was all so simple and easy. as young kids, we didn't exactly care about the real problems of the world, we really just cared on whether we could play together or not. there were no worries besides ourselves. no worries on whether our phones were charged or not, no worries about losing devices that weren't even necessary. nothing. nothing at all

in 2010, chris and i were playing "teacher" all the time at his house. we were either both teachers or i was teacher and he was assistant. it was the best, and was practically our favorite game. he had old phones, like old flip phones and the first iPhone. it was amazing. when we were done playing that, we'd get in his bed and we would just lie there, hugging while i watched him play a video game. we would play that together sometimes, as well.

it was so incredible, but then we got older. as we got older, i feel like we grew more together. there were times as though we didn't speak for weeks but when we reunited, we were inseparable. this was from 2014-2018. throughout these years, we were extremely close together. also during these years, we started liking each other. he told me he liked me, and that he always has. when he told me this, i had realized that i liked him. and it wasn't like i had told everyone that i "loved him like a brother" but more of what my conscious told me, that i truly "loved him." it took me a while to tell him this, but in 2016 i finally told him, and he acted as if he didn't care, but i deep inside know he did. in 2017 he asked me out, but i said no. i said only when were older. since we were only 13 at the moment, i didn't find it to make sense.

now, it is the year 2020, we are both 16, and everything has changed.
my name is harper, and to me, it was never this sunny.