Broken Mirrors

Prologue
My name is Natasha Evan and I only wanted one thing in my life..... I wanted to look in the mirror and like what I see I want to look at my reflection and smile, i don't want to look at the mirror and hear the voices screaming 'how fat i looked', 'how worthless i was' and how i'm useless, ugly, hated and there's a hella lot more, that's all I ever wanted in my life to feel loved for once cared about being by family, friends, anything, but i never got that i got the judgmental looks from people, people that don't even know me or my past, they know the rumors about me, the rumors that they heard based on what people heard about me, no one knows what actually happened and no one really cared enough to know what happened; the truth, some of them cared but not enough and the rest are just curious and want a good gossip but we can't always get what we want right? My therapist once asked me "when you look at the mirror what exactly do u see?" I chuckled coldly and answered "broken pieces, broken girl that they destroyed, they ruined her , they left scars all over me not just physically but mentally, i see the memories that i try so hard to forget, to bury at the back of my mind but fail every single time, I see me....... the old me, the one that once had a perfect family she was loved by her parents had an amazing best friend. I see her smiling at me, As if she had the perfect life and she did back then and me hating her for being so naive, stupid I'm Jealous of her, i'm jealous of the old me" And it's true so I end up smashing the mirror watching it fall piece by piece till there's a thousand pieces laying on the floor just like my broken heart you can never piece my heart again just like a missing puzzle you can try so hard but there's always a missing piece but would i ever find it?