Angel In Disguise

Why do I put my heart in someone's hands that doesn't know what to do with it or still runs around with that same hood mentality to use and abuse me? Why do I allow a man to abuse me and still believes he loves me when he say's it? Why do I look for stuff I can't find? The truth of the matter is I love him. As much as I want to I can't erase the pass. I want to leave BUT I CAN'T.