Second Chance 》 The Vampire Diaries

I knelt down next to his body. I can't get the last 10 seconds out of my mind. I finally found him, just so I can lose him again.

I shook my head as tears streamed down my face. "You can't be dead. You can't."

It hurts. Everything hurts. I feel like someone just ripped my heart out and crushed it in front of me. Well, they might as well have. My breath got caught in my throat as I started gasping for air. I can't do this. I stood by their side from the beginning. I always put them before me. I'd only asked for one thing and they couldn't do it. After everything that I've done for them, this is how they repay me.

I lay my forehead on top of his. "Please don't leave me... Please." He didn't answer. I know he wouldn't. I cried harder. "Don't leave me, Kol."

"Bela," Klaus whispered.

I looked at him. He had tears down his face as he looked at me. "I can't do this, Klaus. I can't do this anymore." I looked back at Kol. "I'm sorry, Kol. I'm so sorry."

I can't take it anymore. I got up and ran towards Klaus. I wrapped my arms around him tightly and cried on his shoulder. I can't go to Stefan or Damon. I can't go to Elena or Jeremy. I can't go to anyone.

"Make it stop, Klaus. Please, make it stop."

"Bela, you know there is one way to stop the pain."

My chest picked up. He's not suggesting what I think he's suggesting. I can't. "I can't."

He nodded. "Yes, you can. It's just one little switch and you won't feel anything anymore."

"I can't. I promised him I wouldn't."

"If you want the pain to stop, if you don't want to feel this heartbreak anymore, then turn it off." Klaus grabbed my face. "Turn it off."

Turn it off. Maybe - maybe I should. I looked at Klaus as I looked for that little switch. My breathing went back to normal. I stopped crying. My family, my friends, they don't matter anymore. I pushed them away until I felt nothing.

Absolutely nothing.

[Disclaimer: I only own Bela Salvatore.]

[Seasons 3 - 4.]

[Book 2 in Bela Salvatore series.]