Suicidal
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Last published Fri, Jan 17, 2014
I wonder what its like to be dead. If its peaceful. Do you keep thinking about how you died? I bet its like floating on a cloud, a thick white cloud where none of the problems from your past life could ever catch up to you.
It'd be like a race. A race where only you are running. So even if you are jogging, nobody can ever beat you .
I'd like to be on that cloud. That big fluffy cloud. Each cloud would be far apart so other people couldnt hop on my cloud.
I starred at myself in the mirror, the half filled bottle of pills in my hand. I swallowed all the pills with one big gulp of water.
I would be on my way to my own cloud soon enough. It was only a matter of time now.
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