Now I'm only existing

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I can't sleep anymore, not after what happened. sometimes i'm contemplating about just ending everything, but i need to be happy, with just existing. Because I'm not living. Not anymore.All Rights Reserved

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Now I'm only existing
Sun, Jul 9, 2017

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Now I'm only existing
Sun, Jul 9, 2017

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