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You Think I'm Perfect? Think Again // Mark Thomas

Jaycee_Sartorious

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Jaycee_Sartorious

anorexia bae boyfriend bulimia bullied daddy depressed emo emotional emptiness iloveyou love sad selfharm suicidal suicide

This isn't a story where everyone's live is perfect and everyone lives happy ever after! This is about a girl named Elizabeth

Elizabeth is always there for everyone but when things get tuff, and she needs someone it seems like everyone disappeared of the face of this dang Earth!
How come when she's going thru things! Everyone doubts what she's going thru, as if her life is perfect, like she Has no insecurities, like everything is going great for her!
But when someone asks her , 

" Are you okay? " they ask

 " I'm fine " she says

When people ask you how you are, they don't want you to say, " well I suffer from Depression I also cut my wrist when I'm alone! Oh and I could never forget that I barely eat, when I'm sad! Oh yea, and that I can't feel anything at the moment, ummm.. how are you? "
I'm sorry I know that, You Don't wanna hear the bad things about me! You don't Wanna hear me explaining to You that I don't go outside anymore, or that put a blade to my wrist , over a stupid guy! 
You don't want me to explain to you , that you don't give a shit about me! 

You don't Wanna hear your daughter in the other room , throwing things around, cause she's looking for a blade

Or your neice, that wants to the a rope around her neck at all times!

Or your sister, your sister hates herself, for not caring about herself!

Or your grand daughter isn't always sick! She just can't bring herself to get out of bed! 

Or your cousin, they don't Wanna know that you cry your self to sleep, every night!

Or your best friend, He/She doesnt want to know, that when you guys fight, she takes that blade and cuts even deeper

You don't Wanna know that! 
Do you?
So stop asking me if I'm okay!
Cause I'm not! 
And it's not that hard to figure out! It's not rocket science!

She didn't believe she had a reason and a purpose to live, Until A boy changed her life forever, good or bad?

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Fml by hannah101gal

"Are you ok?" "What's wrong?" "Are you sad?" "Everything will be okay". Honestly, I'm not okay, what's wrong? Everything! And why am I sad? Because I can't handle anything anymore and NOTHING will be okay. I don't know why I always need to lie to everyone about me, it's not like they could understand anyways. Who's been by my side? Well people obviously, but none of them can know what I think! How I feel! How could they anyways, it's not like my life is a book that people can just read and understand... Who am I? An emotional girl who is exaggerating right now? Haha! NO. I'm actually Anne, and I'm fourteen. I guess that I'm a social teen, always looking happy and approchable. Well not lately...But you'll get to that part at some point. I'm an "average teen" like some people say. Well I honestly don't know. I'm always tired, depressed stressed, but some say that that's normal. Of course because my life isn't complicated at all...Maybe I imagine things? All these years and I've always kept things inside, of course I have friends, but they can't hear my thoughts and know everything in my pathetic life. So that's why I've decided "Well why not write in a diary? Maybe it will help? Or something" I have no idea if it actually helps, but it might...At least it's something I can open up to. To talk about my suicidal thoughts, my depression, my self-harm issues and my eating disorder... On that note.... Bye.... Fml :) Anne

I am the Queen of the Dark by CalistaSalsabila

This world is huge and beautiful. Yet, it also has so many mystery in it. Still, I hate this world. For me, it's just a full pile of trash. Thousands of fake words exist in this world. Not just this world, but also the other worlds. Including mine. Oh what a piece of trash. So many hypocrites exist in this unpredictable huge galaxy. Like those people who supported you, then stabbed you from the back. Those who smiled this second, then spit out their bad words towards you in the next second. Those who were with you this minute, then dumped you like you're nothing, until your distance with them was like the Earth and the Moon, in the next minute. Those who protected you this hour, then tried to destroy you in the next hour. So...trash. What is family? They're nothing but the annoying people whom always tied me up to follow whatever they said. It's like I'm their pet, instead of their daughter who wished to be free. What is friend? They're no more than those who used you, then dumped you when you're no longer needed in this world. It's all Hell. Hell I say. I don't need family! Nor friends! Or even love, or anything in this awful place. I just wanted to be alone. Alone and free. Yes, your eyes were not wrong! I'm so sick, that I wanted to be all by myself for the rest of my life. Yet, why...is it so painful..to see them go? ***** She is pretty. With her glowing silver hair, she looked like the Princess who was blessed by the Moonlight. Her skin is as white as snow, yet pale like the corpses. Her eyes...are as red as blood. She fell to our world along with the falling meteor. She saw the beautiful earth along with the downfall of her kingdom. And when she started to stand on her own feet, she could never say the word 'Mom' and 'Dad' anymore. Born in the darkness, she came to destroy the peaceful Earth, along with all the living beings in it. But as time passed, as she met new people, it all began to change.

Just A Thought by juayxx

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Finding Purpose (+18) ✔️ by ZaynismRules

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Fake [[Completed]] by elise_in_wonder

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The Fat, The Thick, The Skinny, And ME✔ by D_S_Dodie

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$Suicidal Attraction {Old Version} by _DarkQueen$

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"Are you ok?" "What's wrong?" "Are you sad?" "Everything will be okay". Honestly, I'm not okay, what's wrong? Everything! And why am I sad? Because I can't handle anything anymore and NOTHING will be okay. I don't know why I always need to lie to everyone about me, it's not like they could understand anyways. Who's been by my side? Well people obviously, but none of them can know what I think! How I feel! How could they anyways, it's not like my life is a book that people can just read and understand... Who am I? An emotional girl who is exaggerating right now? Haha! NO. I'm actually Anne, and I'm fourteen. I guess that I'm a social teen, always looking happy and approchable. Well not lately...But you'll get to that part at some point. I'm an "average teen" like some people say. Well I honestly don't know. I'm always tired, depressed stressed, but some say that that's normal. Of course because my life isn't complicated at all...Maybe I imagine things? All these years and I've always kept things inside, of course I have friends, but they can't hear my thoughts and know everything in my pathetic life. So that's why I've decided "Well why not write in a diary? Maybe it will help? Or something" I have no idea if it actually helps, but it might...At least it's something I can open up to. To talk about my suicidal thoughts, my depression, my self-harm issues and my eating disorder... On that note.... Bye.... Fml :) Anne