The freaks diary : untold stories

"so I feeled a great urge,I thinked,what is this? mercy ?no no it can't be but whatever it is I kinda like feel this, it's a lil pain but a good pain, once a good women tell me that everyone brings a lil pain them in their heart it hurts but was good at the same time, is what make them think, reconsider,see things in other way, make things in a way they never regretted do later, the good way, she died but not her words not,well I finally get it ,the little pain ..conscience ,mine is know that things will never be the same like used be ,but I still looking for the good side of this "s tell by One of my Ocs, Mr. freak/Carousel ,in the notes that she keep, the untold stories because she never dared tell before ,about past, about love, about reasons, about something many consider a weakness even and she never admits that she like have it.. her humanity, that she still having, emotions things that make her freak heart still beating in a good symphony