The Ramblings of the Lost

Total disclaimer: I have no idea what I'm doing. I've written essays before maybe a shitty book there or two without actually finishing them but when it comes to this the naked truth about what goes on in my head I'm at a loss. I'll stand there and stare like a deer in the headlights not being able to formulate a decent sentence because suddenly 12 years worth of education decided to fail me at that particular moment.

Do you have ever have this feeling that your heart is beating faster than a normal rate, throat is swelling up and suddenly the person in front of you has a twin. That is what my fear of the truth is like the ability to bare your soul for the world to see is absolutely terrifying even when anonymous but I promised that I'd try so I made this random diary to just I don't know stop being scared??

So bare with me hear okay?

Most of what I will be writing about is triggering so you have been warned.