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existentiallylost
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Estée Frost is recovering from Anorexia, two years ago, when TATINOF toured the UK she was admitted into hospital but thanks to an online campaign of sorts, she is lucky enough to be treated to an all expenses paid trip to see the last UK date at the London Palladium.

While she's there, she notices something about Dan, something that reminds her of the way she was back when all her problems started and she starts to wonder, could one of her biggest insult inspirations in life be struggling too? 

In the present day the YouTube channel she created to document her day to day battle with her eating disorder 'Estée Eats' has taken off, that's when she receives the message she never expected to see, and finds herself not only determined to fix herself, but to fix him too.

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