"I think I love you, and not the way I love Percy, more... stronger, and I hate it..." I mumble, sinking down into the white sheets of my bed as his figure looms by the door he had been a mere second from exiting.
"Axel I don't know what to do, I'm scared, I just want it to go away but it keeps coming back," I pause, noticing how wet my flushed cheeks have become from the pesky tears that just wouldn't subside.
My focus is on the soft white duvet that I hold clenched between my fists, but from the corner of my eye, I watch as his black combat boots stall at the threshold of my still bedroom. The atmosphere erupts into a dark cloud of silence as I hold my breath and wait for his response. The world seems to pause as I bite down on my bottom lip, sitting there, waiting for him to respond.
Was she right when she said he would never love me? Is he her prince and not mine? Why does Axel leaving seem so familiar, have I witnessed this nightmare before?
His voice, though soft and low still managed to shatter both the silence in the room and my heart, "I'm so sorry Wyn."
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Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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