ambivalence // danxphil
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dan howell, a lonely boy with a craving for coffee and interaction gets trapped inside the never ending loop of the universe.
the first chapter sucks but I swear it gets better
Dan x Phil
Slowburn
Impromptu dated references
Extraneous usage of atrocious vocabulary
Innuendos and vile puns
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