Thoughts
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Ongoing7m
Last published Sat, Nov 9, 2019
(First Part)
Ever wonder about the mind of some teenager? Why it's complex. I am going to let you guys (the readers) into my thoughts and emotions and struggles. I am not the prettiest girl out there. Man that's not even a picture of me. Some might call me words or labels like "depressed" or she needs a physiatrist. But.. I don't. I just want to share my thoughts, which by the way is really hard for me to do. Yeah I have friends some are even on Wattpad. But, I don't know. Maybe it's cause I'm writing this in the middle of the night. But I just want to get thoughts and things off my chest and out of my mind. Before I think of them to seriously. Anywho lets get into my thoughts.
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