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Thoughts

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Parts 9
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Ever wonder about the mind of some teenager? Why it's complex. I am going to let you guys (the readers) into my thoughts and emotions and struggles. I am not the prettiest girl out there. Man that's not even a picture of me. Some might call me words or labels like "depressed" or she needs a physiatrist. But.. I don't. I just want to share my thoughts, which by the way is really hard for me to do. Yeah I have friends some are even on Wattpad.  But, I don't know. Maybe it's cause I'm writing this in the middle of the night. But I just want to get thoughts and things off my chest and out of my mind. Before I think of them to seriously. Anywho lets get into my thoughts.All Rights Reserved

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C̺͆O̺͆M̺͆P̺͆L̺͆E̺͆T̺͆E̺͆D̺͆ Started ~ October 27, 2020 Ended ~ January 30, 2021 ~ Started editing ~ March 11, 2021 End Editing ~ April 27, 2021 ******* "Funny" his laugh was so dry and sickening, my stomach was doing flips "Tessa Loset" he growled, this time I looked at him in shock "W-w-What di-d you c-call me?" I stutter "You thought you could move here and I wouldn't find out who you were?" He cocked his head to the side walking closer to me, as I started backing up "You thought you could hide the fact that she's my kid?" He pointed to the house "She's not y-your-s" I stutter more and my back hit the door as he climbed my steps "Don't lie to me now Lesy" he mocked using my old nick name. He grow closer and I started freaking out all over again Tessa went back home. Her parents passed and left the house to her. She took up the offer and moved from Texas to Montana. When she got there she met a girl who led to meeting her old lover from high school. As soon as the words hello came from his mouth she knew she still had feelings for him, but she needed to stay far away from him. If that was even possible considering she's now best friends with his best friends little sister. And they both are street racers. And he's more then just a street racer though. What's gonna happen when their worlds come crashing into each other at full speed?