Fucked up
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Last published Wed, Jul 19, 2017
Some things you just can't say out loud.
Some things you wish you could tell everyone.
Some things you wish you could tell that one person.
These are all my things.
My name is Elle and I am 14 years old. This is a true story but I don't know how it ends.
This is my story so far...
Let's begin.
This is a bit like 13 Reasons Why in terms of the chapter(s) being dedicated to certain people
A/N
Contains violence (sexual, physics, verbal, mental, emotional)
Severe language
Selfharm/suicidal tendencies
Deaths
Illnesses
I WILL PUT A TRIGGER WARNING AT THE BEGINNING OF EACH CHAPTER AND ALSO WHEN THE TRIGGER APPEARS
Will change people's names to allow privacy
All Rights Reserved
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