As I lay in bed next to her wondering if she's asleep, I start to untangle my body from hers and sit up a little to look at her.
'Is this what she wants?' I think to myself.
'Is this what I want?' The thought comes flowing into my head afterwards.
I've always had a thing for girls but I've never acted on them before.. At least, not until now.
She starts to wake up and her hand loops around my waist to pull me closer. We needed to discuss what this meant. But right now didn't have to be the time.
I lean down and kiss her and all my worries disappear for the moment as I see her breathtaking smile spread across her face.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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