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idk how well this will be wrote, idk if it will ever be finished. but i wanted to create a story based around my mental illnesses. not to glorify or praise or romanticize them. i want, no i need a way to express how i feel and how my head works and how in my 23 years of life, i've mannaged to stay alive. this isnt supposed to be sad. but it will have triggers, so please please avoid them if you must. mental health is a serious thing. take care of yourself. love yourself. love life.
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