As It Sets

When I look out at the sun
I don't see it
I don't see the girl sitting next to me
Smiling as big as planets
I don't see the deer that's just run across some bushes
I don't see the disillusionment of the world
I've built up in my own head
I just see ahead
I just see a future
I just see my imminent death on the horizon
But I almost don't see that either
In fact, about all I see is that my eyes are just about closed
I can't stare too long into the brightness of a void
I call the distant present
I haven't lived there for a long time
Maybe it's time that I should
As I close my eyes I begin to imagine
The world as I think it is
The girls smile, that was as large as planets
Has turned into a minuscule facsimile
She no longer loves me
And the truth is I never loved her
There was an emotional space left
After things I never dealt with
I realize the center of the world is centered on "I"
And so I began to move my motion of thought
Hoping in the brightness of the moment
To find some sort of hope in us
I open my eyes again
Brightness flourishing almost leaving me blind
I turn to her, and I say,
"We should stay here forever.'
So she tells me, "there's no such thing."
We come to the conclusion that she is correct
Regardless of the brightness of the sun,
There will almost always be shadows hiding
The other way
Accepting that there is no forever
We stay contempt with the thought
That events should ever last at all
I whisper a sweet goodbye to the sun as it sets
And she rests her head on my shoulder
I think, for just this beautiful moment
"We are connected. And will always be this way."