My Name Is...
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Last published Mon, Mar 11, 2019
This is a short story and a work of fiction. This could be triggering to some people, so either read it or don't that choice is up to you.
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My name was Emerson Herondale. Life isn't also my strongest suit and I fail at it constantly. Leaving my mental sanity a mess. When I was eighteen I had a complete mental break down. And I tried to commit suicide. I overcame it and I made it to 26. But one day I couldn't handle it anymore.
My name is Oliver, her boyfriend. The one who found her. I was going to propose to her that night.
My name is Natalia, her best friend. I found Oliver. I now have a puppy that should have been theirs.
My name is... and this is how the story is connected.
Suicide affects more than one person.
You are never alone...
Suicide Hotline- 1-800-273-8255. "If you're thinking about suicide, are worried about a friend or loved one, or would like emotional support, the Lifeline network is available 24/7 across the United States."
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