Everyone thinks I'm happy
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The smile everyone sees. Yea that's fake. The laughter you hear. Fake. But I guess that's how it is. Everyone bullies me because of the music I listen to, the way I dress, how fat/ugly I am. I. HATE. MY. LIFE. The greatest thing to do, would be to end my life. That's at least what I tried to do, but he stopped me. Who knew someone could make me fill alive again ? That's just what he did. I would be gone but no. I guess God had other plans
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"Everyone hopes for that perfect life, but me I just want to be happy. Maybe this new school will help. I don't know anymore. Everything was okay until it happened. Now I'm moving away and trying to find ways to cope. I remember her smile. I remember everything she did for me even though we didn't have a lot of money. She did everything she could to make me happy. As I look out the window tears slowly run down my face. " Change is different and new but it may end up being be better than you thought.
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