Drugs and Poison

Breakups are in no way,shape,or form easy.You lose sleep or sleep a lot,you miss them,you want them,you can't eat at all or you eat too much,it's hard.I just want things to go back to the way they were,but to be honest,sometimes I feel like we have nothing else to weather.

•Braxton and I have been together since we were 14 years old,(on and off) for 4 and a half years.We got engaged July 16,2016.We moved in together when I turned 18,which was 2 days after we got engaged.He bought our first home in February 2017.We fought a lot over petty stuff like him playing the PS4 too much and not spending time with me,or me going home to see my family(they live 6 hours away from us.So,I took a lot of trips basically every month or every other month to see my family.)He broke up with me July 4,2017.He basically broke up with me because he grew feelings for another girl(which then turned into 2 girls.)The first girl didn't feel the same about him,so the second girl did and they kissed.He basically told me he loved me but wasn't in love with me.So as of right now,I spent 2 weeks with him,hoping to make the feelings and love come back,to work things out,the whole 9 yards.Well,a couple of stipulations later and maybe in 6 months or so we will be back together.We have both agreed to work on ourselves and grow as individuals.We are both pretty sure we will get back together and that we can work things out,but it's definitely not gonna be an easy journey.We have a really long road ahead of us and all I can do is hope for the best.•

*this may or may not turn into a book,I just write to get my mind off of things,but I would love to turn this into a book.*