Time To Say Goodbye// Viktuuri

Before I leave, I want to make sure this diary is going to be conserved. All my patience would be for nothing if the secret of this building disappeared with it. After all that I -we- have been through, the world deserves to know the truth. They are suspecting me of having this diary. I know they will do everything to destroy this, even if that means they'll have to destroy all their proof of this test. Including me. Not that I would mind. I already lost everything, they took it all from me, and for what? The only thing that I have left is this. I will protect it at all cost.

I miss him. I miss him so much. It's sad that some people hate themselves so much that they decide to just... leave. Not that I'd never thought about it, but I was just too curious to see what the future would bring me. Even though I now know that it isn't much, I still enjoyed my time here. And I'm still curious, but this time of what's after this life. I wonder if I'll see him again. I wonder if even I want to see him again. I'm too confused to make my mind up. Our latest conversation keeps crossing my mind every night and at the end I wake up in tears, screaming his name. I wish I could've said goodbye to him for the last time.

I hear their footsteps coming closer. It's time. I'm ready. I've never felt this peaceful in my entire life.

I'll have to leave now. This is going to be the first and last page of this diary, and I want to warn the person who finds this and decides to read this. The stories that you are going to read aren't ordinary ones. I've went through a lot the last years. But not only me.

It's too silent. The footsteps stopped, which means they're finally here. Goodbye.

//Started: 12~09~2017//
//Trigger warning; Depression, Self-Harm and Suicide.//