(boyxboy) (5sos fanfic) Ashton Irwin - Member of 5 seconds of summer. you might think of him as happy, bubbly, joking around constantly, never stops smiling, and just a happy guy in general. But this was all just a stupid act for Ashton. you see.. Ashton self harms. none of the boys knew - he had had plenty of practice hiding it. he starved him self, cut, and cried him self to sleep every night. also - he was hopelessly in love with his band member and best friend, Michael Clifford. Michael starts to notice that things are a bit off with him and is desperate to find out why. (as I said before this has boyxboy material in it so if you don't like it don't read it)