I dont know how many times people have to feel pain.. maybe countless times.. maybe for all their lives.
As for me...
I just choose to feel nothing, to feel empty, to be a dull person. I learned to fake my emotion, smiled without twinkle in the eyes, hold back the tears when they tired to escape from where I hid them and laugh just to assure people surrounds me that Im okay.
Until I met him... he gave me the hope to bring back the joy in my life, he make me want to be happy again, to enjoy every single day of my life to show my true emotion. Cry. Laugh. Smile.
And I thought...
Maybe... just maybe...
He's worth my one more bad decision.
"Sometimes I feel like I'm done waiting and holding on
But it is amazing how feelings are gone one moment
And later, renewed by a simple song that reminds me of him
The way he makes me smile and I am completely clueless why
The way I look away once I realize heâ's staring back
And the hurt comes back all over again
And I realize that I didn't let go, I just thought I did"
we can't control anything.. especially when it comes to love.
we hurt. we fall. we get happy. we frown. we smile. we get angry.
we hate. we secure. we cry. we simply say HI then afterwards goodbye.
and anytime you'll realized you're just being played by fate ><.