Good Things //Mind Over Matter Contest

This is for the mind over matter contest. While I wrote this I cried. Honestly I'm not sure if they were tears of sadness because everyone will now know I'm not as happy as the smile I wear. Or tears of happiness because I am strong enough to admit I'm at war with myself. I have personally battled with anxiety, depression, eating disorders and at times suicidal thoughts. When I first saw the movie To The Bone, I cried. I have encouraged many of my friends to watch it. Before they watch it they think I'm just obsessed with a silly movie. After they come over to me with tears in their eyes and say, "I'm sorry your fighting this war alone in your head." So I'll open my little heart up and tell you how I am still here. I just don't know if 500 words will be enough.