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I Don't Want To Be Alive

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I watched as he gripped my lifeless hand, tears rolling down his face. 

"If... If I'm the one who caused any of this... I'm so fucking sorry," 

I sit next to him, my eyes beginning to sting. 

All I want to do is hug him, tell him it wasn't his fault and that everything was ok. 

But I couldn't. 

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