Dear Future Daughter
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Last published Sun, Feb 25, 2018
I'm writing this because I want you to know that everything is going to be okay.
I want to be there for you, I want to be your confidant, I want there to be transparency between us, and if what I went through helps you in any way then I know that I survived for a reason.
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Warning:
This book deals with abuse, depression, eating disorders and suicide.
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I wrote this back when I was in an absolutely horrible state, but I'm reading it back and I realise that I do want it published here - not to 'exploit' my life for Wattpad entertainment by any means, but just something I can look back on and reflect and to facilitate healing. Who knows, someone out there might relate to this, so even if it helps one person (and even if that person is me) it's worth it.
Some parts of this and what I went through I'm embarrassed by because there were times I was a shit person and I wasn't proud of some of the things I consciously did, but it happened and I don't want to leave it out to paint my life or myself as someone better than who I was, particularly if it's something that really had an impact on later life.
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