Here I'm just going to say out loud what is on my mind.
So there's nothing that important in it.
For your information there is going to be some stuff here that might be a little touchy for some people.
a life update and how i feel about current and past months + other stuff ... im telling you C, but not directly because i know you'd never want to ask about it or you're much too busy to have time to hear what i have to say ... and also i'd rather not bother you about it ... here goes nothing