Closed Eyes and Deep Breaths

Anx-i-e-ty
Noun
*A feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome.
*Desire to do something, typically accompanied by unease
*A nervous disorder characterized by a state of excessive uneasiness and apprehension, typically with compulsive behavior or panic attacks.

De-pres-sion
Noun
*Feelings of severe despondency and dejection

Pan-ic Dis-or-der
Noun
*A psychiatric disorder in which debilitating anxiety and fear arise frequently and without reasonable cause

We all know someone who says "Oh, I'm depressed today." or "I'm so OCD, I have to have to have this one spot clean." or "You're so Bipolar.". We see it in everyday life, whether it's among friends, family , or even just overhearing a stranger's conversation. Throughout the media and the internet, society is taught the generalized forms of anxiety and depression. Some symptoms may include: shaking, persistent worrying, inability to relax, difficulty paying attention, laying in bed for days on end, not getting up, sleeping to much.

What they don't see include the inability to speak because you're thoughts are racing too fast for you to comprehend. It's when you're awake at four A.M. because you're mind is going over something a friend said and you have to over analyze it because it could mean something different. It's the fear that none of your friends actually like you, and they are just tolerating you because they feel sorry for you.

This is a chronicle of my life, living with Depression, Social Anxiety, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Here, I will document my anxiety attacks, depressive episodes, my triggers and my coping mechanisms.
I'm writing this in hopes that it can bring comfort to some of you who are also dealing with these mental illnesses. Some of these entries I will be writing while I am in the midst of an attack or episode, so I hope they make sense.