for the awkward and unwanted. (DISCONTINUED!)

idk how to describe this but i'll try,, I'm really scared help. I think its really dumb but my friends told me to,,
ALSO: the first few chapters are unbelievably shitty so just try to get though it.
new school year same friends (who are mostly, not all, based off of real people) Ethan's friends, Tori, Troye, and Nathan, have been Ethan's friends since Ethan moved to America from England a year ago.
Ethan, who is more commonly referred to as james, is going into 10th grade, Tori and Troye are going into 11th and Nathan in 12th, Ethan meets a new boy named Pj, Ethan always thought he was straight but Pj starts making Ethan question his sexuality, Ethan doesn't want to like boys and if he does he doesn't want people to know except for his friends, but he starts falling for Pj and but Pj takes things to far and Ethan told him to stop Pj got all mad and starts spreading rumours about what actually happened. a new girl called 'freckles' moves to town and becomes close with Ethan but then after Pj has gotten popular because of the rumours and joining the football team, Ethan stops caring about Pj in general. Pj disappears, Ethan feels like it's his "destiny" to find out what happened.