A New Man #MindOverMatterContest
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I am at time period where I am mentally stressed more stress than I ever been. I am 27 and yet I still feel like a child afraid to grow up.
Won't lie sometimes I have thoughts of becoming a drug dealer to make fast money to subude my struggles. Sometimes I pray to God and sometimes I do feel like he answers my prays but sometimes I do believe he allows the devil to destroy me.
Sometimes I contemplate rather or not if I should cheat life and just either sell drugs or rob a liquor store or bank but the two things I fear most in this world is God and Hell so I no matter how hard I think about go to darkness Always choose the ways of the lord to keep me on the right path. I choose to have faith and this poem demonstrates how I really feel.
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