Even if we say we will never grow up, we do. As we grow older, we learn a lot about life, and why people are the way they are, and how they survive. Some people, they survive talk about what happened to them. Some people, they survive and they go silent, scared to speak up. As we grow older, we learn why people get addicted to cigarettes, and smoke their lungs until they are black, and they can barely breathe. We learn why people drink their life away, and make it to where they can barely remember a thing. As we grow older, we learn why people would even think about harming their self, or throwing their self off of a building. As we grow up, we learn why people give up.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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