Was I Enough? ~Jamilton~
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After Thomas' sisters' death Thomas finally decided to give in to his depression and commit suicide. This is a story about Alex's experience.
(Jamilton is engaged in this)
***TRIGGER WARNING***
Ohh boy children, lots of questionable topics in this.
Mentions of:
Suicide
Self harm
Depression
PTSD
Abuse
Domestic violence
Transphobia
Cover art credit: Bunny-yams
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