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Was I Enough? ~Jamilton~

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Parts 10
Time 21m

alexanderhamilton angst depression ivesaidtoomuch jamilton lams thomasjefferson

After Thomas' sisters' death Thomas finally decided to give in to his depression and commit suicide.  This is a story about Alex's experience.
(Jamilton is engaged in this)
***TRIGGER WARNING***
Ohh boy children, lots of questionable topics in this. 
Mentions of:
Suicide
Self harm
Depression
PTSD
Abuse
Domestic violence 
Transphobia



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alexanderhamilton angst depression ivesaidtoomuch jamilton lams thomasjefferson

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Fix Me // Jamilton by determinelydepressed

FINISHED :) Modern Day AU, Soulmates AU About: Alexander Hamilton is not happy with his life at all. He has terrible anxiety and depression, and self harms daily. All because of Thomas Jefferson, Aaron Burr, James Madison, and Charles Lee. He's heading off to college hoping for a new start. Thomas Jefferson regrets his high school life. After relentlessly bullying Alexander Hamilton, he wishes he could make things right, but fears it's too late. He's heading off to college hoping for a new start. Soulmates AU: When you write/cut/do something on your arms, it appears on your soulmates arms. For things like self harm, it hurts the person doing it, but the soulmate only barely feels it.

Last Time | lams by HarmoniaGL

TW : depression, suicidal thoughts Alexander had, according to him, no more reason to live. He was tired, and his head kept telling him that he had no one, that if he disappeared, no one would care. And that was true. Alexander was alone, terribly alone. He was waiting for someone. More than anyone on this Earth, he needed a person by his side, because that was the only thing that would have allowed him to stay alive. Alexander couldn't take it anymore. He couldn't find any meaning in his life, and to continue fighting had become useless. And he had no one. Yeah, he just needed someone. And it was there, just as everything was falling apart around him, that he met him. John. The boy he was waiting for. The person he needed. --------------------------------------------------------- Okay, this story is not amazing, but I hope you'll enjoy it!

wed. by JustAsBrokenAsYou

They made a deal, right? Alexander Hamilton teased, belittled, picked on, and bullied John Laurens in grade school. John doesn't care, though, because he decided that all he wants is for Alex to marry him. And he'll do anything to make that happen. Even if they're not a perfect match. Trigger Warning: John struggles immensely with his mental health because I struggle immensely with my mental health. Viewer discretion is advised.

Run Away With Us - A Jamilams Fanfic DISCONTINUED by fangirl_issues102

Sequel to "I'm Just Saying If You Really Loved Me You Would Share Him" ~ Alex looked down at his lap, allowing a tear to slip down his cheek. "He's starting to scare me," he admitted quietly, too ashamed to meet his lovers' eyes. John clucked, resting a hand on his cheek. "He's always scared me," he confessed, causing Alex's eyes to snap to him. Thomas hummed wrapping his arms around Alex. "Run away with us," he pleaded. "Just for a little while, please just run away with us." ~ Alex's biological dad is back and he wants the son he abandoned. John struggles to come out to his family. And Thomas's family just keeps being torn further and further apart. Can the three boys get through their struggles? Or will they lose each other in the crossfire?

(Home)Less Without You by lisaaaaa1616

After Clay gets evicted, he has to live on the streets. He breaks down completely and he doesn't see any purpose anymore. When he sleeps on the streets, he sees a boy passing by everyday. One day the boy comes up to him, giving him food and coffee. After Clay gets a high fever, the boy invites him over at his house, but that's where Clay makes the biggest mistake of his life... TW's: -Suicide attempts (talk about succeed suicide attempt) -Abuse -Homophobia -Accusations of sexual assault -Self harm/self hate -Death

Another Lifetime | Dreamnotfound AU by WritesbyMoon

George woke up somewhere but at the same time nowhere. The events when he was alive came rushing as he opened his eyes. He thought that this was it and everything was finished and that he had to leave Clay alone. He continued his new life but when there was a raffle event for dead people, his hopes skyrocketed. He got a chance to live with Clay again, but for one condition that he might reconsider his decision. ~sequel to Now or Never~ Might contain: Depression Self Harm Smut Rape and more triggering topics. I will sadly not put any triggering warnings so please read at your own risk. And also remember that you are always VALID. Started: 04/25/2021 Finished: 05/14/2021 Total Word Count: 26,114

Dear Fucking Diary by 98Unicorns

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"A Father's Words" - Lyle Springs Book One by OddlySpookz

After suffering abuse at the hands of his father, experiencing a huge loss, and being thrown into foster care along with his younger sister, teenage boy Thomas Aguiar has been put through hell, and can't imagine a life without pain. Even after escaping the abuse, in his head, he still can't escape from his father's words. ------ Total Word Count - 12,835 Words Completed - No ------ The Following Trigger Warnings May Apply to Some Or All Chapters- Referenced/Mentioned Child Abuse, Implied Homicide, Mentioned/Referenced Self Harm, References and Descriptions of Eating Disorders

Philophobia [Jamilton] by FlowerLafayette

Alexander Hamilton was always alone, he never had any friends, all of his real family was dead, he lived with the Schuyler Sisters and thier father. Too him? Love was weakness the feeling of butterflies in his stomach that made him sick. The main thing that cause this fear was the 'Hamilton Pamphlet', John Laurans and him dated for 4 years, Alexander refused to have sex with him so Laruans drugged him, raped him, and broke him. To everyone in the office? Hamilton was just a dirty slut. He didn't hate love, he was just scared of experiencing it again, in fear of repeating the cycle. Everything changes when he meets his new boss, named Thomas Jefferson. Philophobia: A fear of expreincing the feeling of love. !Trigger Warnings! *Rape *Kidnapping *Panic attacks *Self Harm *Slurs

Mental - Lams (DISCONTINUED) by sister_cheezit

Alexander had had a childhood of tragic events, one right after another, which lead to him eventually developing sociopathic tendencies, as well as a few other mental illnesses. He had obsessive-compulsive disorder, antisocial personality disorder, and paranoid personality disorder. All of his previous therapists gave up on him before they even gave him a real chance. But then, one day, a new therapist stepped into the room. He had big brown eyes and freckled cheeks. But the thing that truly made him different was that he smiled. {Trigger Warning} • Angst • Mental Disorders • Mentions of Suicide and Self-Harm

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Fix Me // Jamilton

FINISHED :) Modern Day AU, Soulmates AU About: Alexander Hamilton is not happy with his life at all. He has terrible anxiety and depression, and self harms daily. All because of Thomas Jefferson, Aaron Burr, James Madison, and Charles Lee. He's heading off to college hoping for a new start. Thomas Jefferson regrets his high school life. After relentlessly bullying Alexander Hamilton, he wishes he could make things right, but fears it's too late. He's heading off to college hoping for a new start. Soulmates AU: When you write/cut/do something on your arms, it appears on your soulmates arms. For things like self harm, it hurts the person doing it, but the soulmate only barely feels it.