A Thousand and One Apologies to God.
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Last published Thu, Jul 17, 2014
I knelt down at the edge of my bed with my hands tightly intertwined with each other. My arms were shaking and tears were rolling down from my cheeks, "Dear God." I stammered, "Please forgive me for I have sinned." I said spitting out my words. I began to weep more, harder this time, "I did something really bad God." My whole body started trembling, as I lowered my head into my praying arms, "I've been changing God. I haven't been myself." I whispered.
"I've been really struggling lately and know you seems to notice. I feel so alone God. I feel Worthless. I hate myself. God, Why do I hate myself?" I stammered. I shook my head,
"Why must you put me through this God?"
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