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Kill yourself.  Get lost.  Fag. Queer.  Mistake.  loser.

Dan's tired of hearing those stupid damn things. 

Ugly.  Dumb.  Alone. to different.  Weird. A Waste.

Phil hated what people called him. so he faked it. pretended to be what they wanted him to be. sure, he still heard the occasional 'fag.' 'kill yourself' but other than that it was good.

Overly happy. perfect. adorable. Ray of sunshine. sexy. sweet. amazing. funny. smart.

it was all an illusion and Phil just wanted out.
there was only one option left for him to escape and he couldn't think of a reason  not to do it. he didn't have any real friends. hey only liked him because he was nice to everyone he met and payed for everything. his hands are always cold from not moving to much when he's alone, the drugs and pills taking over and chilling his blood stream. 

Dan had no one, there wasn't even a point to pretend to be someone else. everyone already knows who he is. he is just gonna end it all. his dad wouldn't care. he never does anyways. he smokes to calm his nerves. he's so down his hair is loosing color and is a faint grey no matter how many times he dyes it brown it's always tainted with smoke and turns grey again.  he has no dreams. those were destroyed and rendered over with when he was three.All Rights Reserved

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