Acknowledging, or aware of Ishmael existance in your Life

This is a story of my marriage without God permission, and how that this is reflected in the stories of the bible. How God mighty works manifested in me to become one of his children.
(Ishmael) according to the bible its abraham first born with a strange woman cme from egypt. Ishamael exist because of rushing of decision without waiting on God's plan. God promised Abraham thatbhe will be the father of many nation, but because his wife worried because they are already old, she gave her Egyptian handmaid to her husband to wife. Ishamael is a consequence of rushing decision. Like mevi rushed fetting married worrying nonmore man will come along.