Things I'm gonna do!!!

I'm so tired of my family like I really am and I'm so tired of ppl (including my mom) calling me a bitch💔. And excuse my language and yes I'm only 14 but I'm just letting the world know how I really feel. God did not put me in this world for ppl to call me a bitch, a slut, saying they gone do this and do that or I'm ugly and no one like me. I really am... out of all the ppl that I had in my life.. my mom would call me a bitch more then anyone else would and my grandmother calls me that also. Not only am I 14years old but I am the oldest of 2 brothers one is 12 & the other is 11. No one in this house appreciates anything I do in this house like I cook, clean, and all and I don't get no think you for doing such and such much yet I get blamed for everything in the world. And yea I'm not the only one who struggles in life as a kid but at the end of the day I'm only focus about my life like why don't family treats me like this why do I have to go thru this and why don't no one cares for me in life like whst am I doing to make ppl not wanna care about me anymore like I'm so fucking tired of this bs and I'm tired of crying from pain that is being caused... but what I'm finna do is I'm gonna start being like how my father was (out here selling weed , smoking, drinking, getting high) and all that bc I'm tired and no it's not gonna solve anything but to make it worst but if I'm gone live this life then I guess and hats just how my life gonna be