Him|| Dan Howell || book 1

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Reads 673
Votes 51
Parts 27
Time 1h 59m

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"I would have ended my life but I didn't... because of him"

/him/
pronoun
used as the object of a verb or preposition to refer to a male person or animal previously mentioned or easily identified.
"his wife smiled at him"All Rights Reserved

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DISCLAIMER: This story is mature because it will have some self harm in it. It will also have some swearing due to that's how Dan actually talks. This is not about Phan being real. I'm sorry to disappoint you. Now onto what it is really about: Dan Howell is becoming more and more depressed. His family, his community, not even his best friend, Phil Lester, can help him. He believes he's a lost cause, and he's a mistake. He tries to hide it best he can, but some nights, it's just too much. During this, he's lost his will to smile. He'll fake smiles for videos and pictures, but he's lost a reason to genuinely smile.

Heaviness of Heart ≫ Phan AU by TrashNeverHurt

"I'm drowning myself so" drowning, wrist cutting, suffocation, noose, drug overdose, carbon monoxide, starvation, and dehydration. Those are things that Dan wanted to do so he can be free. Friends, smiling faces, sunrises, long drives, happy thoughts, love, road trips, baby animals, and children. Those are things that made Phil happy and a live

Just by Chance- Phan AU by JustAnotherFicWriter

Dan is that kid. The popular boy that every girl swoons over, that everyone wants to be friends with, the boy that's a complete jerk to anyone lower on the totem pole. But deep down, he's just trying to hide and ignore his own secret- that he's gay. Phil is Dan's usual target. Openly gay, awkward, and nerdy, he seems to be easily bullied. He's always too afraid to say anything and would rather stay in the background and get through high school and go to university. When Dan's grades slip 🔚 he needs to bring them up or else repeat his senior year, Phil is assigned to tutor Dan. It seems to be a terrible coincidence that the two are brought together, but it's so much more. Thank you @tissuesfortheissues for this amazing cover Highest ranking: 450 in fanfiction Mentions of self harm and suicide

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completed ~~ Dan comes from an abusive home, and the bullies at school aren't much better. Just when he thought his time was up, he meets a boy named Phil and thinks that life may finally be worth living. ~~ self harm, suicide, fluff, etc. ~~ vemod (n.) a tender sadness or pensive melancholy; the calm feeling that something emotionally significant is over and never will be back -----------------------------------------------------------------

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completed~~ Dan Howell is admitted into the Manchester Eye Mental Hospital after his attempted suicide. He gets roomed with a boy named Phil Lester, but he doesn't talk much. Not at all actually. Dan decides to make it his personal mission to make Phil talk, but focusing on someone all the time can make you lose yourself. ------------------------------------------ mentions of self harm, suicide, multiple mental illnesses, etc ------------------------------------------ deranged (a.) mad; insane

Dan and Phil ***TW // SUICIDE- DEPRESSION- SELF HARM-DOMESTIC ABUSE//SEXUAL ABUSE // UNDERAGED***

I love him and I told him. But he didn't love me back. Phil Lester the love of my life didn't see me as more than a best friend. And soon she came into the picture and things got worse. Accidents happened and he lost her I figured we could go back to the way we were before but he was never the same without her. I knew I had to fix him. But I was in love with him and he didn't feel the same. How could I fix the one person who's breaking me? When will he ever actually fall for me? ****Trigger warnings. If you're sensitive to cutting and suicide mentions then maybe dont read.****

Smile, Dan

DISCLAIMER: This story is mature because it will have some self harm in it. It will also have some swearing due to that's how Dan actually talks. This is not about Phan being real. I'm sorry to disappoint you. Now onto what it is really about: Dan Howell is becoming more and more depressed. His family, his community, not even his best friend, Phil Lester, can help him. He believes he's a lost cause, and he's a mistake. He tries to hide it best he can, but some nights, it's just too much. During this, he's lost his will to smile. He'll fake smiles for videos and pictures, but he's lost a reason to genuinely smile.

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