The minds evil games and it's laughter
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Last published Thu, Nov 2, 2017
this.....this is just talking about some of the things I have to deal with...when people look at me...they think I'm kind...and easy going...but....there's a war going on inside my head that I can't control....and the voices.....when they come to you it's......it's horrific.......if you all could see inside on my mind.......you could cry......these are some of the things my mind comes up with and ponders.....the constant questioning myself....judging myself....and......and more...I...I just hope this set of chapters helps you.....or tells someone how to help a friend that's going through something like me....I will not talk about my personal life just the mind
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