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depression ryden âu

ryan is not happy. 
he doesn't know why. 
brendon wants him to happy, 
but he doesn't realize--
i t s  n o t  t h a t  s i m p l e 


D I S C L A I M E R :
this story is meant to realistically depict the stuggles of depression through the eyes of a fictional character. basically, im giving the whole story a trigger warning. this story is being based off a lot of what i have experienced personally, and i'd like to take a moment to let you all know that you are very loved and there is so much to be alive for, so please never think that there isn't. feel free to message me if you need somebody to talk to-- im all ears 💗All Rights Reserved

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