Think before you do

"The worst day or loving someone is the day you lose them... "I walk down these streets and people tell me smiling is a sign of happiness and that I'm moving on. "Smiling doesn't always mean your happy, sometimes it simply means your a strong person."
I'm to afraid now... I don't want to be but I can't control it. "I'm scared if I let myself be happy for even one moment, that the worlds just going to come crashing down. And I don't think I'll survive that."
" when you lose someone,it stays with you, always reminding you of how easy it is to get hurt." I look at this house, this town, and all I think of is my mom and how she died in this very place. I see her favorite stores and and places to eat and I don't ever enter them again.
I always felt grief and sorrow and pain. When you scratch your knee or brake something, pain spreads and soon enough it goes away. The pain in my heart hurt to bad and took to long to go away... Leaving me miserable and slowly numbing...So now?

It became to numb

Everyone ask me how I feel and I answer with the same thing...

Well...

" I don't feel anything"