A fantasy, that's what it was; that's what it should be. My years of believing in the make-believe were supposed to be over. My childhood fantasies had been done with for so long.
It was unfortunate to lose the bliss I had with being ignorant. It had taken so long to take control of my life and to get where I am.
I wanted this to be anything other than what it was, a sick prank, a dream, a nightmare, you name it. It sucks to realize you've been wrong for all this time- about something so major, so fundamental.
What sucks way worse is the fact I became attached and invested in this, in him. I guess some people will now consider me some kind of satanist, though I consider myself more of a Devils Advocate.
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30 Kapitel
Abgeschlossene Geschichte
Erwachseneninhalt
There is no one in the world who could possibly love me, I know it. I've pretty much resigned to crying under my covers at night as my boyfriend who I adore links hands with my bullies at school and beats me down.
Pretty cliche.
I think.
Sometimes, I lie awake at night, just wishing, begging, praying for an angel to fall in my lap and wave their magic wand, take the pain away. Maybe kill me silently in my sleep, take me to a better place... One where I am not alone, suffering, always suffering, and eternally rejected by the world.
Still, the angels never respond, never reply, never come to my aid..
Will a DEVIL do?
[A/N] Don't read this if you're sensitive to abusive scenes as there is physical and emotional abuse in this story... but have no fear, there are one or two other stories on this site you could read instead.
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