Loving cant hurt
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Raegan broke up with me a while back Nothing felt the same. I felt like i couldnt be happy i had to get high to put a smile on my face. I knew i couldnt be sad around my supporters i didnt want them to worry. I barely went live because i was too high i needed to be. Cause if i wasnt i could end up 6 feet in a grave i didnt want to do that to my supporters cause i knew half of them went through deppression i didnt want to make anyone sad. But i couldnt pretend to be okay if i wasnt i gave up on myself. I just wanted to die whats the point i asked myself is there even a point?. I grabbed my phone and posted a picture with the caption "i love you guys". I turned off my phone and went into the bathroom I looked at myself and felt tears stream down my face. Everything in me was numb everything in me broke. I didnt care anymore i just wanted everything to be over. I turned off the bathroom and walked down the hall went into my room and grabbed the rope from closet. I sat on the ground and thought to myself no one can fix this no one can help.
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