To Know Pain
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Ongoing, First published Aug 28, 2017
The person in the mask cocked their head. An unspoken yet understood question, What do you mean? The boy was starting to understand that this creature would not speak. Now that he got a good look at it, he noticed reddish brown unruly hair leaping out from behind the ceramic surface. He noticed the large, hopeful eyes on the cat face that seemed to follow the expressions underneath. The small figure and energetic twitching and tapping movements made them seem childish in spirit. CJ took a shaky breath and whispered, trying not to break the calm of the silence, "What do I call you?"
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The man screamed at the sight of this creature in the icy rain, the dark Byzantium purple marks glowing down his arm. This schoolteacher was fearful for his life. The beast growled, large, looming, and angry. This demonic figure thundered, "Are you happy now?! This is his life! Our life! Look at what you've done to him!" The man began sobbing, not yet understanding what he had done to upset a being this powerful. The beast kept his fiery hatred in his eye but made no move to touch the man. That would ruin everything.

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WARNING: STRONG LANGUAGE, GORE, VIOLENCE, HOMOPHOBIA, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, DEATH

Typically short chapters. 

I want to thank my best friend, my husband*, and my son* for being so supportive and keeping me from ending my life on several occasions and for telling me I'm worth more than what I have, even if we don't always agree. 

 The people who romanticize mental disorders, make fun of those in LGBTQ+ and those that have mental disorders , and those pretend mental disorders aren't real inspired me. Without you, I would have never learned how to stand up for my friends.

*I am not married, nor do I have kids. These names are used for privacy reasons.
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{Completed - #12 highest} I was walking on a path all alone at midnight. I was just wondering around, until I saw a guy in a hoodie. He was beating the pulp out of another guy and one more man was on the ground, he was not moving. I gasped. 'Is he dead?' Or he can be unconscious, yeah 'el' he is just unconscious not dead. Duh! Who would kill a guy? As I was proceeding with my thoughts, that hoodie guy turned his face towards me. My heart had a mini heart attack. I turned my heels to the opposite direction and started to run. 'Run Ella, run for your life' was what my mind was screaming to me. I took turns without thinking, that guy was now following me and guess what? I took a wrong turn and which ended up being a dead end ' You are so dead' I thought. So, I started to think what I said last time to the people I love. 'Good night mom, love you.' to my mom, 'Stop annoying me! I'm going to bed.' to dad which also mean I love you, 'See you later Lu, love you!' to Luana. Okay my good bye says I love them all. Now I can die in peace. Granddad I'll meet you soon in the heaven, if you are there. I was still in my deep thoughts until I saw his silhouette. As, he get closer, my heart begin to race faster. I closed my eyes, until I heard him say "Ella?" O to the M to the G, this person actually knows me. I opened my one eye and saw him due to the small light hanging in that ally "Errrrr'ick!" I squeaked and mentally face palmed myself. Even at this state I'm calling him Errr'ick. "I'm sorry your highness, what can I do for you?" I squeaked again while trembling. The next second I heard his fits of laughter. He was rolling on the floor, actually rofling. I was glaring at him but I realised that I'm not in a position to glare. So, I made puppy dog face for him to spare my little life. He stopped but after seeing my face, he started to laugh again. He tried to say between his guffaws "You..... your face .....was epiccc!" He started to gasp for air and had tears in his eyes.