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Black is the Absence of Color

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Louis suffers from Major Depression. Harry tries to be supportive. Yet, somehow, the role of hero and anti-hero becomes intertwined. 

"I knew the moment I met him I would be seduced. He was so captivating. His tresses hitting his cheekbones at the right angle; His icy blue eyes piercing through my soul; His smile that only angels could bless one with; He could do no wrong. It keeps coming back in flashes of light; a wave of memories that consume my every thought. It wasn't meant to be this way. At first, I had control. I felt loved. I felt admired. I felt wanted...& he knew that. Like a insect waiting patiently to devour his prey, he became an opportunist.. & somehow, through this darkness, I look to him to find the light."

 (Depression/Emotional Abuse/Suicide Triggers/Sexual Content).

(Takes place after Hiatus)All Rights Reserved

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